Jeffrey Campbell X Stolen Girlfriends Club

an exquisite mash-up between my all time shoegasmic brand Jeffrey Campbell and NZ's Stolen Girllfriends Club. enough said, the collab is stealing girls' hearts with the detail plays, well-precised, unique in quite a simple way, and most important : pretty versatile. basic pieces with attitude.

the main piece of the whole set was named "Emma" boots, the ones featured in all photos above. looked like cowboy vest/ royal clown in monochromatic/ moroccan tapestry at the first sight, if you ask me what I was thinking. but the point is : JC never fails me. you don't know how much I adore them.

human, not a puppet

so, instead of doing my real obligations (googling about online marketing, learn more about Indonesian kain, some other else, many other else), I end up reading the latest bday wishes I received several days ago.

those were from my announcer buddies, who somehow threw out some kind of late surprise and gave me this one awesome artwork. gonna post the picture later, after I snap it with at least a high-res camera. anyway, this artwork contains all their bday wishes. I read them one by one : 12 people, 12+12+xxx wish, and 12+12+12+12+infinity words that made me smile like half-idiot-half-pervert.

and here's the main point of this post : 2 or 3 of them (who clearly understood almost all of my current life stories, and exactly knew that I had one specific prob bugging my head for months) hoped that this crap-coated prob would end soon (yea of course, positive wishes). they said quite like this : don't let anyone hang you on his/her strings. go find your escape.

I instantly imagined myself, tied up with such invisible handcuffs, connected to some slender sticks by thick transparent strings. exactly like marionette, or those wayang puppets my dad used to watch. later on this one person came, took the sticks, then moved me felinely according to his mood swifts (let's just assume that this person is a he, before you readers begin to confuse with the term he/she, him/her, whatever). to sum it up : he controlled me. he hung me right under his hands.

along these previous months, I've been through a long cycle of escaping, getting caught back, escaping again, getting caught again, then it went on and on and ooonnn. I often said to myself : don't let him screw you. take control over your OWN life, you brainless girl. but the fact is : it's not that easy.

done with my shameful narration. what I'm trying to say is, it shouldn't be that way. we're born as human, with complicated brain parts, millions cells of neural system, whatsoever, so that we can think for ourselves. you have the right to do any move you want for life, instead of letting someone else doing the job. freedom, that's the keyword. it's something too precious to be given to someone unworthy (just like what I almost done).

never ever hang your life under someone else's will. in my case, I let destiny (and my baseless presumptions) control my every single move. I was hanging my life under the hands of Mr. Uncertainty. what a double combo I got there :

1. I lost control of my own self.

2. I handed over that control to something uncertain.

well then. I just can hope that this massive galauful case won't happen to other people (maybe any of you). just take me as a pitiful lesson.

"Just a puppet on a lonely string,

Oh who would ever want to be king?"

(Coldplay - Viva La Vida)

blessed

frankly speaking, this was not a pleasant day. yet as far as I could remember, it was one of the most memorable ones. I don't know what else to say, just... THANKS!

for everyone who found their name above, once again : thanks! for those who are not there, you know what, you might mean much much more. it's just too corny if I printed out all of those, isn't it?

I'm not that type of person who gives out way too many "I love you!" "I love you guys!" or whatsoever so easily. I won't say it out loud , but you should know : all people I know in my life, each person has at least one strong touch to shape me. so how I am today, how I behave today, how I think today, I can't be one without all of you.

fable, fact, or f*ckin' nothing

The cast

One bulky sparrow that always dreamed to be a dove. Why? A dove was always destined to have at least one lover in life.

One eagle, brokenhearted by a playa parakeet in the past, looked for a lifetime soul mate, yet it ended up befriending the sparrow because of one similarity : They were both longing for something far from reality.

The story

Briefly said, they met, they became friends. The sparrow whined about its "sparrow-ness". "Why was I born a sparrow?" "Why nobody ever comes to me?" "Why am I black? I want white, as doves!". Meanwhile, the eagle whined about the parakeet. "Why did it leave me?" "Did I do something wrong?" "Why had I fallen for a parakeet at the first place? I'm an eagle, why should I crave for something that weak?". Sometimes they made fun of each other with those pathetic thoughts. Most of the times, they still supported each other through the hard times though. That made them closer to each other.

The problem is...

The sparrow started to change its mind. "I don't have to be a dove to have a mate. I already have eagle. No matter what we exactly are, friends, lovers, or nothing, I'm happy that I know such a nice bird like it." But sparrow couldn't lie, birds would never be able to. Between the three bolded choices it had mentioned above, it preferred the second one. So the problem is : Did the eagle feel the same way too?

The inspiration

one midnight rambling that came up to my mind while listening to John Mayer

pretty sure I'll always love this movie, even after the 500th day

well I don't know, I've got nothing special or anything related to this post below. I just feel like sharing one of the most inspiring movie I've ever watched. at least the most inspiring for me.

why I heart it :

1. Joseph Gordon-Levitt

I don't think he's handsome nor sexy. he's just... the guy next door I'd easily fall for.

2. Zooey Deschanel

she's absolutely the type of girl I'd like myself to be. bold, free, and never realizes her appeal. I always adore someone who's gorgeous, but doesn't know that he/she is.

3. the story

broken heart. yeah it happens aaalllll the time to every single living person on earth. Tom's character in this movie is like a rough slap on my face. it was like, I had been such a believer in fairytale-ish love life, then Tom appeared on screen with his pathetic pointless struggling, then wham! I clearly understood. the lesson is, nobody says that moving on is easy, but it's NOT impossible. past love could someday come back, take you back to the sweet times you two used to have, make you blind of the way they used to hurt you, slice your heart into thin pieces (metaphorically, of course). but the thing is, hey it's already gone! it used to be sweet, but as time goes by, the sugar level decreases, replaced by pure bitterness.

tired with metaphors? I'll make it simple : only fools don't move on.

"Roses are red, violets are blue... Fuck you whore."

- Tom Hansen

"Ok, I like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people's feeling get hurt. Who needs it? We're young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world ; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later."

- Summer Finn

"They used to call me anal girl. I was very neat and organized."

- Summer Finn

"Just because she likes the same bizarro crap you do doesn't mean she's your soul mate."

- Rachel Hansen

Paul : "Did you bang her? What, hum job, hand job?"

Tom : "Man, no - no jobs. I'm still unemployed."

"Look, we don't have to put a label on it. That's fine, I get it. But, you know, I just... I need some consistency."

- Tom Hansen

"Well, you know, Henry Miller said the best way to get over a woman is to turn her into literature."

- McKenzie

Tom : "Nobody loves Ringo Starr."

Summer : "That's what I love about him."

"People should be able to say how they feel - how they really feel - not, you know, some words that some strangers put in their mouths."

- Tom Hansen

"There's no such thing as love, it's fantasy."

- Summer Finn

Summer : "We're just friends."

Tom : "No! Don't pull that with me! Kissing in the copy room? Holding hands in IKEA? Shower sex? Come on! Friends my balls!"

"People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated."

- Tom Hansen

source :

en.wikiquote.org

www.500daysofsummerquotes.com

www.imdb.com

the tuesdays that inspire your every single day

so, I have just finished reading this.

Tuesdays With Morrie

(Mitch Albom, 2002)

it was completely based on a true story, about Mitch's relationship with Morris Schwartz or Morrie, his sociology lecturer at university. as student and teacher, they were quite close to each other. Mitch, just another ordinary grown-up boy found Morrie so inspiring. he was that type of lecturer who didn't really emphasize on academical achievements. his lesson was more about life itself. he saw everything in his very own way : optimistic, not biased by the culture and always believed in the power of love. sounds cliché, yet Morrie didn't think so. he kept on inspiring and changing people life, right until his last breath.

after his graduation, Mitch never saw Morrie again nor heard anything about him until 16 years later. he was randomly changing TV channels from one to another when he suddenly saw Morrie appearing on screen. apparently he was suffering from ALS (amyotrophic lateral sclerosis), a severe disease that attacks neurological system. soon he would lose all his neural functions, and so far there was no cure for this ALS.

most people would grieve to death until the death itself comes to them. yet Morrie remained optimistic, grateful and inspiring, though he lost one by one part of his body each day. with his remaining physical effort, he popped up with one idea : making his last thesis with Mitch, which mostly talked about life. their talk included various topics e.g. love, marriage, forgiveness, culture, and some other more. those were pretty simple, but those things Morrie spoke were the things that we forgot most often.

Morrie & Mitch

picture taken from Google

first of all I chose to bought this one (after having quite unimportant dilemma while choosing between Nicholas Sparks, Paulo Coelho, Cecelia Ahern, Khaled Hosseini, etc) because I'd already read Five People You Met In Heaven (also by Mitch Albom). I've read it for I-don't-know-how-many-times now, but I never get bored of it. it's very inspiring. that was why I decided to give another Mitch's piece another try.

and I don't regret choosing it at the first place (yes of course. why do I bother to write this long about the book if I don't even like it?). this book is amazing. good for those people who are already tired with life and all endless stress and routines. for those who've recently been quite desperate. just read this, you'll get something, depends on your own reception of course.

Cuaca Cihuy! (heavy image post)

I took a class named Pengantar Sastra Jerman (Introduction to German Literature) in the last 4th semester. and our final test was... making our own theater performance. we were given a 12-scened script (about 1hr 15 mins) titled "Prima Klima" by Fabian Scheidler. it was a role play about environmental issue, which was actually performed for children. the script was in German, then the students had to translate and adapt it by adding Indonesian culture and customs to our own-made script.

we worked with the whole production process for about 1-2 months and here's the result :

(Poster design by Lydia Putriyana)

the hectic atmosphere, several hours before the show :

and look, they turned me into...

THIS.

(credit to Rizky Meilisa [right] as my Make Up Artist)

yes, the "shemale" above is me. I played as 73 yr old man. more about my role and the whole story of our performance, please kindly scroll down...

M. Irfan Wahyudi (as Jaenal) and Fadhilah Farhan (as Pak Sapei)

left : Olivia Syafitri (as Juleha)

Rinka Rima Sy and Pinka Almira Kusuma (as Pohon 1 & 2)

(they're not siblings anyway, only destiny made them met each other)

left : Widia Arianti (as Pak Abidin)

right : Syifa Arifiana (as Bu Maemunah)

left : Sanny Patrecia Simamora (as Jaki)

see the cute shiny creature on the bottom right corner?

lemme proudly introduce...

Mexican Golden Frog, our class' icon. isn't it adorable?

(eyak salah ngambil foto, jadi ketauan kan bikinnya pake pylox -__-)

well I'm normally not fond of frogs, but this Kodem (abbreviated from Kodok Emas, iye emang gak kreatif namanya) is an exception.

special performance by Claudio Ananda Putra (as Ondel-ondel Betina)

and Fandy Hakim (as Ondel-ondel Jantan) LMAO

well overall I consider the show as quite a big shot, due to the fact that almost all audiences (included lecturers, friends, juniors/seniors, and some people who actually just passed by) laughed like crazy. there were still some aspects that still need improvements, and there were also several technical errors before, during, and after the performance. but overall, I enjoyed performing this theater piece and I love working with my team. great solid teamwork but still with countless laughters that banished all the tension.

so hereby in this post, I'd like to gladly thank everyone in PSJ class B :

the whole cast

(Farhan, Widia, Rinka, Pinka, Fandy, Irfan, Syifa, Oliv, me, Sanny, Lely, Gege, Claudio)

(almost complete) production team of Cuaca Cihuy!

also bunch of thanks to everyone who had come and watched us, and for those who couldn't come but had already given their good luck wishes to us. I sincerely thank you all.

If you just found out about this theater performance and thought like "damn I wish I'd watched that!", well we have a good news for you. the details are not fixed yet, so I can't publish it now. I can hardly wait to share you the good smashing news, but once again, just wait and see... *silly wide grin*

(Photo courtesy by Lydia Putriyana & BF and Triyanisya & BF)

there's something between us anyway

several weeks ago I was refreshing twitter timeline like zillion times, then I read a friend tweeting about this song. I randomly played their songs in my iTunes library, then from that time on, I'm falling in love (again) with Daft Punk. this song is somehow not-so-DP, the rapid beat that makes me want to move was missing there. yet I still find this song... magical.

"It might not be the right time

I might not be the right one

But there's something about us I want to say

Cause there's something between us anyway..."

hypem newbie

just created my Hype Machine account. one good website for musical omnivores like me, who listens to almost all genres, all musicians, anything. it lets you discover new hyped music from all around the world. the easy interface makes it easy for you to play any songs you'd like to listen. a bit like last.fm, but slightly with more fun.

feel like sharing my discovered treasures :

Alex Winston - Sister Wife (Star Slinger Remix)

Austra - Lose It

Blood Orange - Dinner

Bright Eyes - Train Under Water

City And Colour - Fragile Bird

Cults - Bad Things

Cut Copy - Take Me Over (Flight Facilities Remix)

Diplo & Douster - ON!

Fitz & The Tantrums - Money Grabber

Ford & Lopatin - Emergency Room

Foster The People - Houdini

Friendly Fires - I'm Good I'm Gone (Lykke Li Cover)

Gunfight - I Would Be Your Man

Kid CuDi & Dot Da Genius - Perfect Is The Word

Seapony - Blue Star

Stardust - Music Sounds Better With You (Justin Martin Edit)

The Chalets - Go Go (Don't Go)

The Drums - Me And The Moon (Clock Opera Remix)

The Heavenly States - Model Son

Tiger Love - Pussy Cocaine

directly saying, I recommend anyone to make an account here, there's like zillions of edgy, unique, tunes you'll find here.

#junewish

well, I have no urgencies to share any, since I know none of my june wish(es) will come true. none.

orighty. no space for whiny-blamy. I'm soon to be 20, that explicitly equals maturity. so that's what I'll simply do right now. don't whine, don't blame, just live with what's coming to me. because everything always happens for a reason.

as I've promised to (and demanded from) myself in the beginning of 2011, I'll arrange my resolution list before I reached this year's birthday. trying to pop up with some drafts here :

- routine sport (walk to/from campus, routine fitness at least 3x a week)

- better financial management (less unplanned hedonism, think 100000 times before buying things)

- better sleeptime management (less midnight randomness/galauness, wake up earlier)

- NO MORE "CLASS-AT-8-BUT-WAKE-UP-AT-7.55"

- NO MORE "I-EAT-A-LOT-EVERYTIME-I'M-STRESSED-OUT"

- more committed on diet in spite of semangat 45 di awal dan peduli amat di akhir

- watch my mouth. be careful with whatever I want to say

- be more serious on work

- improve design skill and marketing knowledge

- be a better announcer. there are still lots of aspects to be polished

- find an effective way to keep my voice clean-and-clear (less sore throat/losing voice, like I'm suffering from right now)

- find other ways to fatten up my piggybank (routine saving, freelance jobs or whatever)

- quitting one specific bad habit, deadline : before graduating univ

- be more grateful, stop looking at other people's lucks longingly. I should've had my own luck already

- don't be such an stonehead, listen to my friends. they always want the best for me

- don't set my hopes too high. live realistically, without utopic optimism nor desperate pessimism

- get my driving license this year. IMPROVE DRIVING SKILL! (VERY IMPORTANT)

that's all I can sum up for now. am gonna come up with more improvements soon. right after I get my mind cleared up from these pathetic thoughts