ANGELina

I postponed writing about Frau Yustin simply because I still can't believe that she's already gone. I hope that was just a strong dream that deceived my brain or something like that. Now, we have to lose another great figure. Feels like getting a double slap right on my cheek. Nobody knows what happens tomorrow.......

Well. Maybe God has a better plan for her, and for us all. That's why He took her to join him in Heaven Club ;)

Angelina Yofanka

(July 1992 - February 2012)

I can't say that she was my best friend, but I did spend much time and have bunch memories with this pretty carefree lady. As much as I could remember, she lived her life to the fullest. Going to places people rarely imagine with ways that people would rarely do. She had her own point of view which was sometimes silly, but simply true. She was brave and tough, behind her pretty face and her supermodel figure (she was so tall I often asked her to be model or something like that) she was strong enough to conquer Jakarta's bronx corners, mountains, villages, anything.

I learned a lot from her. Through her wide smile, I learned that beauty comes from the inside, not from anything you wear or you could afford.
I learned that good clothes don't always equal stacks of money. I remembered everytime we went to a 17th bday party, she proudly told me how much her dress would cost. Like, only IDR 12k or so and she already looked fab.
I learned to be an independent kid, not to depend on someone or something else. She taught me how to ride a bus straight from school to home. She endorsed me to take public transportations and kept me safe when I fell asleep during the ride. Without her, maybe now I'm still a spoiled anti-bus brat.
I learned that there's too much to see in this world. She inspired me to wander around, to be outdoor and explore any places you'd like. Because your world is much bigger than you always thought.
I learned to live happily, and be grateful for everything you have for now. She didn't have all things that people dreamed, but she never complained. Maybe that was why she never left that unique, unforgettable smile.

And 'course I didn't forget those silly memories I had with her. Wandering around Kota Tua while waiting for my dad to pick us up. Her super funny expression when she found out that my car had somekind of glass roof (I remembered she couldn't stop opening and closing the glass, over and over again). On junior high school, the very first time I got to know her better. We were in the same class for UAS bimbel, and all we did in class was just fooling around. Then that whole year as Sanur FM crew, broadcasting at Trax then ate out at McD Sarinah while gossiping about boys. And also, I clearly remembered that she was one of those who tried to matchmake me with my previous ex. Well, there were too many things I'd like to recall and type, but I simply can't.

The last time I saw her was June 2009, on graduation night. From that time on I never had the chance to meet her again. It was like, whenever she was home (in Bekasi) I could never spare at least a day to see her. That happened again and again until now. I could never had those silly talks again. Damn, I can't hold my tears....... Sorry fan :"(

You went away too soon, seriously. But well, I guess you deserve a better place up there. I'll always remember you, a tough young lady, a pretty woman in the making, an adventurer, a natural-born photographer, a great designer, an imaginative dreamer, a great friend, a very good person.


See you when I see you fan :) Save me a seat in heaven, kay?

cukup memanjakan mata dan pencernaan

*beep beep alert : heavy image post*

Decompression #10 & Jakarta 32°C 

celebrating Ruangrupa's 10th Anniversary

Exhibition started from Dec 28th - Jan 12th @ Galeri Nasional Jakarta

opens Monday - Sunday (except national holidays), 11 AM - 9 PM

then took a taxi and rushed off to En Dining EX. the price sort of made me petrified for a while, but the taste was damn worthy. it's like walking on the path of enlightenment for you food lovers

*burp* *smile* *can't be happier than this*

thank you so much for today, especially for Isabela Dian, Elizabeth Evelyn, Maria Bramanwidyantari, Ken Swasti, Marsha Herryanna. you make me miss high school even more :* can't wait for another stalkie-talkie next time

I'm becoming an auntie, woohoo!

remember this happy newlyweds?

(check out about their story here)

well, they're officially mom and dad now!

meet this cute offspring of theirs,

Lionel Russel Septianus.

he was born in September 17th 2010, 8.11 PM

isn't he a total cuteness?

no wonder all of his aunties love him damn much

P.S : buat Meirna & Ruben, mau dong bikinin satu lagi buat gw menyek2in

HAHAHA

Paulina Aquilea Felicita

today's post is specially dedicated for this pretty lady 

heyya people, meet Paulina Aquilea Felicita

she's like one of my best buds in Sanur, or in Bahasa class, to be more precise. 

and I think she has almost all of the qualities needed to be a super person. 

she's multitalented. she's got such a happy sweet family and a super loving BF. and don't forget the good friends around her.

she's one of my so-called partner when I did crazy reckless things in class. I have plenty of stupid videos with her on it, and I always bursted out into laughter everytime I saw them.

for some reasons, I simply won't upload the video here. too embarrassing :s

she's one of the people I ran to when I needed a wise ass to talk to. she would listen to your story carefully, and tried to ease up your burden. one of the things I like from her is her honesty. she told you anything you have to know, not only the things you want to know.

and that's why I like to talk to her. I knew she would tell me her perspective truthfully -no matter how bitter it would be-, instead of overelaborate things just to make me feel better.

Kulturfest 2008, when she won the 2nd prize for Role Play Contest

class Mass, when she acted as a slum kid.

right next to her? yea it's ME, as a tukang ojek. fascinating make up, isn't it?

Kembang Gula (school event, November 2008), she was putting some make up on Aping (and some other friends) who were gonna play as, ehm, prostitutes.

Goethe Institut Menteng, class performance for Partner-Schule event. she was the one holding a violin (apa viola? tau deh hehe :p)

okay let's just get to the main point.

today she's leaving to US to continue her study there. I've heard about this plan since long long time ago, but when I saw this text message on my cell phone :

  " Aku pergi dulu ya teman2.see next year :) i love youuuu! :D "

then I felt like, ctenggggg *backsound in my head* I won't meet her in the next one year.

well, last year she was in Taiwan, but at least I could meet her after several months. but now, she seriously won't come home until 12 months, 52 weeks, 365 days... okay, getting I'm getting hyperbolic.

so I think I need to give her a proper goodbye.

ehm. what should I say. umm. okay. listen up Fel.

first of all, I don't want you to put up a face like this

put on the pretty smile we used to see!

when you feel like you wanna cry, remember that you are NOT alone. no matter how far, we'll always be there whenever you need someone to talk to. say thanks to technology!

you still have a BF who loves you damn much

... and also bunch of friends who think that you're special

just think at the good side! you're studying in a country with great universities spreading everywhere. and you're taking the major you love (language or culture something, am I right?) and I really ENVY you for that. seriously. doain ya someday gw bisa nyusul ambil European Studies AMIINNN!

anyways, all you have to do there is study well (yea of course), make your parents and your BF and all of us proud. you've got the power to be super. and I'm not being lebay, I seriously mean it. whenever you feel like missing Jakarta, just turn on your Skype (or at least find a Wi-Fi for your iPod and sign in to your Twitter! hehe).

well. dunno what else to say. maybe I'll just say it right to you as soon as you're online. just enjoy your new life there, and remember that Kebab's will always  be happy to see you back. We love you <3

I feel... nothing

recently did this to the empty walls in my kost room :

FYI, 104 is my room number.

I know it's just too plain, but couldn't find any other idea to make my failed lomo picts and movie tickets more useful.

and this one, are ALL of my movie tickets since December 2006. 

see? some have even faded that I kept them in my wallet for too long

here goes my point for tonight :

as I moved my eyes through the tickets, then I read the movie title, each movies threw my mind straight to the moment I watched them.

when I saw Rush Hour 3, I remembered watching it with Irma, Putri, and AT @ Setiabudi 21, still in our Sanur & CC uniform. then I walked down to Starbucks to get some caffeine kick.

there I found a group of kids, and turned out that they were orphans and the baristas were teaching them basic lessons like english and math. so I joined them and that was somehow fun.

until now I still wish to meet them again and have another mentoring session, but never get the time (and the perfect companion) to go there again :(

when I saw Quickie Express, I remembered watching it with Puput Danah and Aping, right after last day of exam and I cut off my bang like THIS

JESUS CHRIST!!!!!!

when I saw I Know Who Killed Me, I remembered Irma, my forever and ever sweetheart *backsound : unyuuu* we watched it in MetMall, that was the only film that (we thought) the most sane enough. turned out that Lindsay Lohan was a total garbage there.

after I saw these photos, I thought :

ampuni kami Ya Tuhan.....

when I saw Wolverine, I remembered Noni, and the way we squealed and hugged each other everytime Hugh Jackman appeared on screen. yea yea, speaking about ababil...

when I saw Crank 2, I remembered Puput. then I bursted out into laughter. I remember we watched this at DjakTer right after school. we decided to watch it because of Jason Statham, then after the movie started, we just couldn't stop commenting on the scenes :

Itu dia berapa juta kali ngomong f*ck dah?

Waaaa itu Chester Linkin Park kan?

Hah dia gituan di pacuan kuda??? WANJIIIRRR!!!

and so on and so on..

and of course I remember that we even broke the sofa due to too much laughing. when the light was turned on, tau2 kita liat pegangan tangannya COPOT GITU AJA.

how I miss menyek2in your cheek Put! <3

then I saw Kambing Jantan, and I instantly remember my ex and our first date.

I compared it to our own real story, then felt amazed of how amazing coincidence would be.

Kambing Jantan version : Dika studied in Adelaide, Kebo in UI, majored Chinese Studies. they broke up after Dika moved to Aussie.

my version : He is now in Sydney, me in UI, majoring German Studies. broke up before he left to Aussie.

i felt like, GEEZ?

saw Night At The Museum 2, remembered him.

saw Race To Witch Mountain, remembered him.

saw Public Enemies, remembered him.

my head was full with all these sudden memories, but deep inside? I felt nothing.

I stared at them once again, still nothing.

maybe it's true that time heals everything.

well, is it a sign for something... or nothing?