INSOMNIA

it's 1.56 now

AND i still can't sleep

AND i need to go to school tomorrow

AND i haven't told daddy about that

so who gonna take me there, for God's sake?

dammit

well whatever, the thing occupying most of my thoughts is

HOW TO CURE INSOMNIA

i always sleep at 4 or 5 simply everyday, and don't think i don't know it's terribly bad for weight reduction program

3 weeks of holiday, and still NO PROGRESS at weight department.

now talking over love life. mm it's 2,5 months so far. i still think and rethink over some matters, both the importants and unimportants, bigs and smalls. it's like i always find something wrong, every time.

i can't read his mind. i can't find out what he would think about this. i don't know if this love will last forever (or whatever those love songs always say). but for now, my brain always seeks him and my mind always calls after his name X)

anw i just read riri's blog and I LOVE HER POST LIKE HELL. (you can read it here) it's damn touching, and i miss my friends even more now.

i can't imagine how my days would be without them

can't imagine how my tears would stop when they leave, one by one

can't imagine how pathetic i will be, when i realize that we won't ever be together again

okaay i still know a word called 'reunion' but IT WON'T EVER BE THE SAME

i regret that i didn't try harder to know them better than i've done.

now our two years of togetherness is over, and i probably won't see them again

...

gosh i'm crying now

thanks to Maria Bramanwidyantari for those beautiful words

(read this too. it's bianca's and i also love the post sooo much)