Symphonie - Silbermond

this song is simply soooo me right now. it keeps sticking on my every single brain cells. you can have it here

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Sag mir was ist bloß um uns geschehn

Du scheinst mir auf einmal völlig fremd zu sein

Warum geht´s mir nich mehr gut

Wenn ich in deinen Armen liege

Ist es egal geworden was mit uns passiert

Wo willst du hin ich kann dich kaum noch sehn

Unsre Eitelkeit stellt sich uns in den Weg

Wollten wir nich alles wagen haben wir uns vielleicht verraten

Ich hab geglaubt wir könnten echt alles ertragen

Symphonie

Und jetzt wird es still um uns

Denn wir stehn hier im Regen haben nichts mehr zu geben

Und es ist besser wenn du gehst

Denn es ist Zeit

Sich ein zu gestehn dass es nicht geht

Es gibt nichts mehr zu reden denn wenn's so regnet

Ist es besser aufzugeben

Und es verdichtet sich die Stille über uns

Ich versteh nich ein Wort mehr aus deinem Mund

Haben wir zu viel versucht warum konnten wir´s nicht ahnen

Es wird nicht leicht sein das alles einzusehn

Symphonie

Und jetzt wird es still um uns

Denn wir stehn hier im Regen haben uns nichts mehr zu geben

Und es ist besser wenn du gehst

Denn es ist Zeit

Sich ein zu gestehn dass es nicht geht

Es gibt nichts mehr zu reden denn wenn's so regnet

Ist es besser aufzugeben

Irgendwo sind wir gescheitert

Und so wie´s ist so geht´s nich weiter

Das Ende ist schon lang geschrieben

Und das war unsre...

Symphonie

Und jetzt wird es still um uns

Denn wir stehn hier im Regen haben uns nichts mehr zu geben

Und es ist besser wenn du gehst

Denn es ist Zeit

Sich ein zu gestehn dass es nicht geht

Es gibt nichts mehr zu reden denn wenn's so regnet

Ist es besser aufzugeben

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with these i also wanna say :

SHOES, MY TREASURE. be good there

xxx

SO DAMN HOT

Was And Now

Project Code : Hair Make Over

Due Date : September 26th 2009

Was

Now

Was

Now

whatdoyouthink, folks?

xxx

101 % Official : German Studies UI 2009

It's official now

And here come my friends..

From German Studies of UI 2009

Ready to sew it on my jacket's left sleeve!

Yuke Adora Iskandar

0906528865

S1 Reguler Sastra Jerman

Universitas Indonesia 2009

X)

Ballads of Hamba Allah and Sipenisch

hola folks.  it's damn right when green day sings wake me up when september ends. now that october has come, my REAL life here was just started.

so many silly things happen these latest 4 days. start from Monday :

Monday is always the most avoided day by us, kiddos of German Studies 2009. when the clock stops at 1, it's the time when we have to release our other mask. the silent, innocent, geeky nerds. when LWK (name was hidden due to our own safety, i'm serious here) entered room 9205, well it's time to be as invisible as possible. i remember clearly one of her quotes :

"Nilai A itu cuma buat Tuhan. Nilai B buat saya, nah kalian baru dapet sisanya."

WTH. i think i've got a great overview about my future for the next 4 years. anyway, while she was blabbering about stuffs i didn't really understand (as always) suddenly i heard a catchy noise outside:

teong teong teong dungdung, teong teong teong dungdung, teong teong teong dung.. dungplak kemplung

sounded soooo much like half dangdut half keroncong. eventually i found out it was a band consists of some boys from Javanese Studies. and guess what their name is?

Hamba Allah

i predicted that someday they gonna be much much more fantastic than that cemetery band (read : kuburan).

LWK was like, errrr. i wished you all could see her face, like she was laughing but also ready to explode everytime. mm maybe you just have to imagine Professor Umbridge from HP 5 in your head. they look so much alike, 90% similarity innerly and outerly.

and now jump to Wednesday :

on Weds i have 4 hours NONSTOP german class. there are 2 lecturers, they both are reeeaaallly nice but still, that never stops me from yawning or even worse, sleeping. and fyi, one of them graduated from the very same high school like me! what a really really small world.

when the class would be ended soon, Siti Fatima Ningrum a.k.a Sifa a.k.a Sipe (Sifa Pendek) made another stupidity, as she always does

i gonna write down the dialogue happened (it's not exactly the same, just an overview) :

Fr. Avi : Sifa, kalo Griechenland bahasanya apa?

Sipe : Mm, Griechenisch ya?

Class : Griechisch..

Sipe : Oiyaaa lupa! Hehe..

Fr. Avi : Jangan bikin bahasa sendiri kamu

Sipe : Haha iya deh tar gue mau bikin bahasa sendiri ah

Me : Iye, tar kita buka jurusan Sastra Sifa ye

Sipe : Tar bahasanya gue kasih nama SIPENISCH

a second passed by, then..

Irfan : EH buset parah lu

two seconds..

Class : silent, then BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA SIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Sipe : still didn't realized anything, kept her innocent face. Then OMAIGAT

i really can't imagine how would the language sounds like. but i wonder curiously, maybe Miyabi would be glad to use that language for her next movie in Indonesia Xp

mm that's enough for now i guess. i need to work on my piles of assignments. just wish me bunch of luck for the rest of the week, and i'll wish you too.

xxx

new chapter of life

insomnia takes over my head, again.

first of all, so sorry that i didn't update this blog like, hundreds years long. so many things passed in and out of my life, both pleasant and unpleasant, both important and unimportant, both general and extraordinary.

i gonna start with my univ life.

mm i entered my kost on Monday, August 3rd 2009. then started my first day in UI with some kind of choir practice and you know what, that was sooooo damn boring. imagine, approx. 5000 people inside one single room (it's kinda big, but still. 5000 people) singing from 8 am until 2 or 3 pm. i spent most of the practice days chatting with new friends, or sometimes sneaking out and hitting the nearest mall.

talking about the friends there, they're totally nice. long before, i heard from little birds that public universities were sort of discriminative. i was a bit scared, of course. i am a chinese and also a catholic, everyone nose that both are considered minorities. worries rolled around my head. will i be accepted there? will they treat me right? and other will-theys that i don't need to publish here. but the fact broke those prejudices. so folks, if you're considering to enter a public univ, afraid not. as long as you're willing enough to socialize and make friends, everything will be simply under control.

the lessons, well one thing you must know. even a great skill in german won't help you surviving in German Studies of UI. why oh why? it's the lecturers. most of them are too perfectionist or unpredictable or so damn moody. some seniors told me, even score B+ is considered a rare miracle. well i don't want to talk about this anymore. this topic really turns me down low. hope i didn't choose wrong, AMEN.

and now, maybe love life?

well, i'm back single now. on Saturday, September 5th 2009, we broke up. think it's not ethic to blabber up about all the reasons here. but the point is, we're simply not meant to be together. until now, i still save all his picts, his SMSs, simply all the stuffs about him. not that i'm still hoping of fixing up our relationship. i just think it's no use to throw all that away, i'll still remember him anyway (unless i suffer from some kind of amnesia or what). so i'll just let it flow. let time cure all the pain left. and btw, yesterday we were supposed to celebrate our 6 months anniv (yeah, i still remember that. i'm not that idiot or forgetful, you have to know that). but well, no use to talk about that. one thing for sure, i'll always wish him best of luck, wherever he is. though he won't ever come back home, though he'll forget me someday. he's already part of my lifetime history, no one can change that.

what else? mm maybe my recent looks

i just cut my hair today. at first i wanted short simple hair, without too much traps or layers or what. and the final result : i've got no traps, no layers, but still kinda too long. well, look at the bright side at least i won't look like a frickin mad artist or what. and about weight department, I GAINED 2 KILOS sheet man. i thought living in kost would help my diet program, but that only occurs to normal people, not a person with such head like me, if you know what i mean.

mm. i don't know what to say now. guess that's enough for now. see you with another update from my new chapter of life. yeah new, new as a university person and new as single again. it's 2.57 am now, i really need to hit the bed soon.

smooch people,

xxx

i want this!

i also found lotsa cool stuff. check out www.mrfreddy.us

(he's not a friend of mine or what, i put his web address here because i truly like his entire collection. go check out and tell me if you think so X) )

surprisingly accurate

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

(source : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx)

our time is running out

yes, he's leaving soon

struggling for a better living in the future

but how about now?

i'm afraid to ask anyone, even myself.

well i'll always wish the best for you babe, no matter what

xxx

zum Geburtstag viel Glueck

ROUND 1 : june 25th 2009, house, around 8 AM

got up after some smoochies from mum. no offense but ewh. my face was still damn oilyyyyy.

then opened up some gifts and gave a try on the cake. super yummy, especially the thick chocolate layers. slurp

yummy, isn't it?

thanks mom and dad for raising me along this 18 years.

the general birthday ritual. it couldn't even wait until i took a bath or at least put on a proper cloth instead of my sleeping outfit

ROUND 2 : out with BF, around 12 PM

got no idea where to go and so did he. spent almost an hour in the middle of jakarta's busy traffic. then an idea popped up in my head : i remembered once he said he wanted to try blenger burger. then deal, off to kebayoran.

after filling up my stomach with the giant mighty hot dog, he drove to raplas. something wrong with his ipod, so we paid a short visit to ibox. then did some dvd hunt, and walked to sency after. i was curious to see the spongebob fair there. i found a big cute spongebob doll and i WANT it like hell. but after i saw the price tag, well.. i forgot the exact number but it was around IDR 225.000 WTF. it's true what my friends say, it takes lots of effort to find cheap stuff in sency Xp

(anw i forgot to take any picts)

ROUND 3 : june 27th, bengawan solo MKG 3, around 6-7 pm

this one was unplanned actually. my first plan was PRJ, then dinner at amigos kemang. but the traffic jam was damn intolerable so daddy decided to turn back to gading. dammit can't i escape the gading routine even for ONE saturday? that upset me pretty bad.

i texted my BF, told him how unhappy i was bla bla bla. then he asked me whether i wanted him to come see me there. i said no but he insisted. then we ended up at bengawan solo. the first time i saw him that night i also saw his huge bag next to him. i've got no idea that he kept a cake inside! whoa. i imagined how could he bring the cake while riding his motorbike.

pardon the blurred picture, i took it with cellphone camera.

this is the only picture of us that i took. didn't find the mood to take any other haha

that's all from my 2009 birthday. adios xxx

INSOMNIA

it's 1.56 now

AND i still can't sleep

AND i need to go to school tomorrow

AND i haven't told daddy about that

so who gonna take me there, for God's sake?

dammit

well whatever, the thing occupying most of my thoughts is

HOW TO CURE INSOMNIA

i always sleep at 4 or 5 simply everyday, and don't think i don't know it's terribly bad for weight reduction program

3 weeks of holiday, and still NO PROGRESS at weight department.

now talking over love life. mm it's 2,5 months so far. i still think and rethink over some matters, both the importants and unimportants, bigs and smalls. it's like i always find something wrong, every time.

i can't read his mind. i can't find out what he would think about this. i don't know if this love will last forever (or whatever those love songs always say). but for now, my brain always seeks him and my mind always calls after his name X)

anw i just read riri's blog and I LOVE HER POST LIKE HELL. (you can read it here) it's damn touching, and i miss my friends even more now.

i can't imagine how my days would be without them

can't imagine how my tears would stop when they leave, one by one

can't imagine how pathetic i will be, when i realize that we won't ever be together again

okaay i still know a word called 'reunion' but IT WON'T EVER BE THE SAME

i regret that i didn't try harder to know them better than i've done.

now our two years of togetherness is over, and i probably won't see them again

...

gosh i'm crying now

thanks to Maria Bramanwidyantari for those beautiful words

(read this too. it's bianca's and i also love the post sooo much)

if you're not the one

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?

If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?

If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call

If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings 

But I know you are here with me now

We’ll make it through 

And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?

If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?

If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?

If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away 

But I know that this much is true

We’ll make it through 

And I hope you are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with

And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with

I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away

And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today

‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right

And though I can’t be with you tonight

You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

(yea, is there any way that i can stay in your arms?)

newbies

again, so looong time no post. hadn't found any idea what to post anyway.

maybe let's just start with most recent updates:

- march 26th 2009 : i'm officially his! now it's almost 2 months and my head's still stuffed with thoughts over him X)

- april 4th 2009 : found out that i was accepted in UI! after a long consideration (and also a light fight with daddy, fyi) i decided to dump SGU's scholarship and chose the hard-to-get UI. soon (just days ago) i finally knew that i did it right. i paid a visit to SGU's campus and it was just 2-floor-high! maann i can't imagine spending 4 years in a world that small. now the only prob left is CALLING MRS NEUMAIER TO CALL THE SCHOLARSHIP OFF!

- april 20th - 24th 2009 :  i had my national final. half of it was simply a total disaster, the other half, well i think i could handle that. now i can only wait and wait and waiiittttt..

- april 26th 2009 : my first time visiting UI with parents & little archie. after 2 visits (the 2nd was a week after the 1st) i finally found a good place for me to stay. IDR 500.000 a month, located right in front of the pathway to UI. one funny thing about it is the name : PONDOK PINK. kinda ridiculous, isn't it?

- may 8th - 9th 2009 : very first real fight with him. it was kinda weird (actually I WAS) but thank god i eventually found my sanity and we could get through it.

- may 11th - may 14th : school's final. when science & social kids had all their tests finished by 13th, me and my classmates got to wait for one other day. 14th was a total breaking free day, we were undescribeably happy but terribly sad at the same time. I GONNA MISS THEM ALL ESPECIALLY WHEN ONE BY ONE STARTS TO LEAVE. just wish that the afterparty plan will be fixed soon.

now i finally get my awaited freedom, but i simply have no idea what to do with that. any idea, folks?

DILEMMA

after a month of loooong looooong waiting..

i found out that I WAS ACCPETED IN GERMAN LITERATURE OF UI!!!

whoa

but now that i'm dreadfully confused, i think it would be better if i wasn't accepted at the first place

i just can't choose between them two. SGU? UI? SGU? UI? SGU? UI? SGU? UI? SGU? UI? SGU? UI? SGU? UI?

HUAAAAAAAAAAA

i've asked sooo manymany people. most answer was SGU. 2 pals said UI. 2 said both.

actually i've ever considered taking them both. but if i do so, my 4-year-life would be bekasi-depok-tangerang aaaalll the time. maaaannn isn't that too much? T_T

until this moment i'm still considering the best option for me. i simply need lots of comments as possible. PLEASE left some suggestions, it gonna help me soo much thanks!!

heavier than heaven

HEAVIER THAN HEAVEN - a biography of kurt cobain

written by charles r. cross

london, 2001

as you've (possibly) guessed before, this book is all about kurt cobain, the frontman of nirvana. he was famous for his music and his rockstar attitude, but the thing that had turned him into a living rock legend was, ironically, his death. he committed suicide in the age of 27 by shooting himself. in spite of his dark and tragic life, this book revealed all about kurt cobain, what influenced his personality, his secret thoughts, and also his unconditional love for his family. though you're not a nirvana person (just like me) you can still enjoy the book and try to see the world from kurt's unique perspective.

he looked damn so cool here!

middle-march melodies

hopla! soo long time no post. yea, with all these brainstuffing exams (just 3 more days and it's temporarily over!) and my snail modem X( anw if you've noticed so far, maybe this is the very first time i type here in english. not that i'm in an attempt to be like cinta-laura-KILL or what (fyi, i saw her blabbering about that KILL, NOT KIEHL stuff on tv). just trying to improve my english, i think. well i think i could also consider this as a practice for my english national exam, since my english teacher once told my whole class to use and practice speaking english as often as you can bla bla bla. alright enough with this nonsense forewords.

no story really worth to be shared this month. mm lemme see.. last week i had my premiere driving lesson with a friend and with my dad 2 days after. my first driving attempt was so much a disaster that i almost crashed a small kiosk, but fortunately i could get my foot on the brake in the right time. second driving lesson, almost no progress at all. all the thing i did was just turning left, turning right, retreat, that's all. sooooo boring that i almost fell asleep while "driving" hahah

i've also watched some movies this lately. i gonna make some kind of review then.. 

- Marley & Me = i found my eyes wet when reading the book months ago, and i just felt the same with the movie. it was so touching i cried a lot (again). and fyi, i went straight to PIM to watch this movie right after i finished SIMAK. it was a REAL hell that i couldn't do ANYTHING. just looked emptily at all the questions and drew some meaningless doodles on the questions sheet. the result gonna be published on april 4th and surprisingly, i've got no angst here. que sera sera, i don't expect much with my super-idiotic test result. i just need to know as soon as possible so that i don't have to think about UI and all its stuff anymore!

- Kambing Jantan = pretty entertaining, but frankly speaking, the overall movie was below my expectation. i enjoy sooo much reading all the 4 books, but i simply couldn't feel the same way with the movie. it was hilarious at first, but later it became so boring and even mooore boring. well idk about the other watchers, but i myself don't recommend you to watch it. thousands of apologies, raditya dika X(

- Slumdog Millionaire = COOL! the whole plot was unpredictable. i like the way they created the storyline, unique and full of new improvements but still enjoyable. a bollywood project with a remarkable hollywood touch. but still, there was one extremely-obvious bollywood essence there : WHAT'S WITH THE DANCING SCENE? is there any indian movie WITHOUT dancing scenes at all? well well that's so rhetorical, i guess XD no dancing, no bollywood, right?

-Seven Pounds = i didn't have any plan to watch it actually, just a spontaneous idea after spending hours at aping's house. but no regret, the movie was awesome! the ending was super-unpredictable. the story itself was great, but finding a person like tim thomas is pretty impossible, if you ask me. and one big question : why'd will smith look soooo old there?

that's all. i've spent plenty minutes thinking what to type here. see you later, ciao!

ANJRIT

what a start for the just-started new year..

berat gw semakin MELONJAK. thx to liburan yang gada kerjaan selain makan tidur dan onlen

kartul yang tadinya gw targetkan kelar liburan ini.. akhirnya gak kesentuh

analisis sastra? don't ask. bukunya aja blom dapet

dan facebook gw kedisabled!

ini yg paling bikin gondok si sbenernyaaaa

mslhny itu acc udah lama dan gw ogah disuru ngulang ngeadd 460an orang dan aplodin 16 photo album. bisa gila guueeee

mana itlewat fesbuk kan gw kontek2an sm tmen2 gw d jerman.. kalo gada tu acc susaaaahhh X((((

cuma bisa berharap smoga itu account bisa hidup lagii.. kalo kagak, ya tpaksa aja bikin account baru. hahah

yasudahlah. not in the mood to write another more.

bubbs

xoxo